Still Thursday...

I wish the ringing in my ears would go away. I think I hear a couple of [ ] moving around now. Patience, patience. Slowly looking up, I hear the branches go crack crack crack. The white noise sound in my ears won't go away and I resent that.

The [ ] cross down the hill near a low spot. This branch is right in the way of that shooting lane, however. Something to be resolved before next season, aka, something to think about. I don't think I want to put the scope up yet. Let's let the deer move around naturally some more before any movement from me spook them. My hearing is fucked but still pretty good. Rock concerts bad for hearing silent things in woods, Ten Bears would say.

Maybe that is part of the confusion in modern society- people don't understand that maybe I just don't hear what they say not as an exercise in selective hearing but simply because all those rounds of shooting catch up to a man.

There is now a small bug on the tip of this pen. I cannot repeat the spots on the page I made as I silently tried to pin the bug down on the page. Think of all these punctuation marks. My mind wanders easily in the stand. I like the camo Dad put up around the stand...a stand built with a limited quantity of GRK fasteners. But it was fun. One stand per year.

Movement off to my left- I can't tell yet if it is a [ ]. I can feel my blood sugar dipping as the Mr. Goodbar is dissolved into my system. I ate each square and pretended each was one whole candy bar...it made the fact that it was 35% of my saturated fat for the day seem minimized. It also was a good exercise in patience. Words are becoming less focused as I am getting tunnel vision. Engage your other senses.

Bask in the afternoon sun. Watch nature slowly surround you. Look at the balsam needles. Hear the sounds of the gravel pit. Learn the sounds of the deer. Listen intently. See the sunlight glisten off the blued barrel. Don't fidget. Marvel at the craftsmanship of your firearm. Let a fly scare you in the silence. Be attentive to sounds that carry. Feel the light breeze. Fill the pages of a notebook for others. Offer a sacrifice to the land. Savor a candy bar.